Ladies if you're the type that believes in girl power and gents if you have a delicate ego....read no further....this is almost certainly not for you....I used to blog on a personal level long ago, it was popular, this is a blog very much in that vein, it's about an event I can't let pass without comment so don't expect too much more of this style, though hey, a lady is entitled to change her mind so maybe...
On the 26th of November 2010 My life moved on to another level as did the life of My No1, cutting a very long story short My No1 came in to My life some 20 plus years back, within about 12 maybe 18 months we were smitten and both sure we were soul mates, it was about this time I started to fuck other men, initially it was through swinging albeit a very one sided style of swinging, I fucked No1 did not.
Over a period of 12/13 years the swinging turned to cuckolding, many years of chastity device experimentation and some, OK more than some BDSM play, it was more lifestyle than play for us, our own version of 24/7, there were many men in My bed over the years, some were just fuck buddies, some one night stands and some men I had affairs with, one lasted 8 years, another 3 years, just to set the foundation for the blog the difference for Me is a lover I will spend nights with, short breaks, holidays etc, a fuck buddy is just that, they turn up, we fuck, they go.
I have met men numerous ways, mostly through adds on various swinger sites, socially, through work etc etc etc, I find the swinger sites the best if honest, I love big cocks, that's a story for another day and how this whole lifestyle started really but I won't digress, on a site you can advertise for what you like and 8 inches plus is what I ask for as a minimum, look away gents if you have a delicate ego, in My opinion anything less than 8 inches is just not big enough, No1 has 7 inches and at best he is adequate on rare occasions, I still use him to satisfy Me on a very regular basis, I just have him use his tongue mostly and after 20 plus years he knows where all My buttons are so is an amazing lover in his own way.
So that's a brief background and give or take about the way we were 7 years ago today....
A few weeks previous to the 26th I was contacted by My first love Doug, we met on holiday and at the time I thought he was the one, some years later when we broke up it became very much a chapter in My life that was *unfinished business* and for the next 20 odd years including my time with No1 I burned a small candle for him. I think No1 was more aware of it than Me and brought Doug up in conversation over the years. It was Doug after all that gave Me My love of big cock, and so in turn No1's mission to have Me have My desires and wants satisfied by others in a department where he is inept. A beautiful and thoughtful man, selfless and devoted, My perfection!
Doug was now an estate agent, married with 2 kids, and here the ladies need to look away, married with kids has never bothered Me, if I like it I take it and I must admit to take another woman's husband when I want is and always has been an added extra to an already exciting cuckolding for My No1 and dalliance for Me, the first message was flirty and I pretty much decided before I replied that I was going to fuck him again.
So fast forward a few weeks, I had told No1 I was going to fuck him, I also told him I would not insult Doug and was therefor going to fuck him bareback, something I am very careful about normally, I had No1 take pictures of Me that I send on to Doug, I had many raunchy phone calls and masturbated whilst talking to My former boy, good ole fashioned phone sex, No1 could but sit and watch....poor boy....I had No1 book a nice Hotel on the Thames at Staines or to give it its posh name Staines upon Thames, he paid for it also, I saw No1 in a very different light than normal from the first contact with Doug, I tell My No1 I love him every day, and I do, but I know he was frightened, he was very frightened, he struggled to sleep, became even more attentive than normal, he had a sort of please don't leave me, pleading kind of look in his eyes, I must admit that extra power made Me very wet and very horny, I would wake him in the middle of the night to satisfy Me as well as morning and evening and when work allowed day times too, it all added to it and it was for both Myself and No1 a very emotional few weeks, a real rollercoaster of feelings, by the time the day came the atmosphere was electric, I know in My heart No1 didn't really want Me to do it, but by then I just didn't give a fuck, it was happening I told him as much. No1 of course understood that by now it was a need not a want, a need to settle the demons from years back and to satisfy the built up lust.
I dropped No1 at the hotel so he knew how to find his way back to Me when I summoned him, it was cold and wet but I gave No1 no further thought as I entered the hotel, butterflies in My stomach, once booked in I headed for the lounge, two comfy well worn Chesterfields in front of a roaring log fire, i got a coffee and waited, right on time My former lover and great love arrived, still very handsome and so very fuckable, coffee and flirtation saw a nice big bulge in his suit trousers and for Me I was soaking, seconds after we entered the room we were snogging, groping, ripping each others clothes off, a fast frantic very very passionate fuck ensued and we collapsed exhausted onto the bed, him naked Myself still in stockings and suspenders, intimate unlike with a fuck buddy. We chatted, we reminisced we touched, I must admit I couldn't resist and did on a couple of occasions pop him in My mouth and tease, we fucked again and all too soon the afternoon was gone, he had to go back to his wife and kids, I saw him out and wished him well. I texted No1 "come get your cream pie" as I waited I reflected, it was nice, it put out the candle I had burnt, I was glad I did it, the cock was good but he wasn't a patch on My No1, I may fuck him again, I may not, not bothered either way. I haven't so far.